I halfway speak all that is on my mind. I halfway act out all that I would like to do, and all that I would like for myself. Communication seems almost meaningless to me at times. Every word, phrase, thought, and idea is nothing but a reiteration of another word, phrase, thought, or idea. And with each repetition, everything just becomes more and more vague. More and more inconsequential. I am lonely. I am so fucking lonely, but I just want to be left alone. I have a habit of surrounding myself with shadow puppets that are supposed to resemble human beings. Breathing, laughter, witty joke here, clever punch line there, more laughter, more breathing. And perhaps this constitutes as legitimate interactions for some, but for me it's just another way to feel alone, yet numb myself to the very same sensation.